Yesterday I was out of the house at work for over thirteen hours.
Thirteen hours away from my Children.
Thirteen hours away from my little Family.
Thirteen hours that I spent working so hard that if I am honest, in that time I did not give home a second thought.
Too busy to eat lunch and too busy to take a break.
Willow is poorly and I’d had very little sleep in the night before so I probably wasn’t in the best place to be dealing with a stressful day.
I felt like a yo-yo going up and down stairs for appointments and answering my phone every five minutes!
Workloads are especially high at the moment, and to be absolutely honest I am struggling to cope with completing my work, to the expected high standards at the moment.
I enjoy being busy, I thrive on it, with two very young Children i’m generally fuelled by adrenaline, I used to pushing myself.
But this is too much.
Thirteen hours away from my poorly little girl and then coming home to have to do more work is too much.
Work isn’t going to go away, and neither are my responsibilities at home.
A friend on Twitter last night reminded me of the importance of an equal work-life balance.
A work life balance is about prioritising correctly between career and lifestyle.
He was right. I decided to spend last night with my Husband, catching up with each other, and looking after our baby girl together. It simply is not fair to expect Dave to take extra on too. Plus, as Willow’s Mummy I wantto look after my baby girl when she is poorly.
We also made a lovely meal and sat and ate together. This is such a rarity these days.
I slept well, although not for much longer than six hours, but it’s enough to function and get me through today.
Being a working Mummy is hard work, and the stresses, pressure and emotional pulls are making me feel overwhelmed.
But, this isn’t every day and Willow isn’t always poorly. On the whole, work is good, I enjoy it and the people I work with are great,
I just wish, on occasion I could be in two places at once!
And that there were more hours in the day.
I want to be successful at home AND at work.
Some weeks are always going to be more stressful than others, but this last few weeks have left me feel rather nervous about the next six or so months.
I still think Dave and I made the right decision, but I am worried that I will not be able to strike the right work life balance, and so welcome advice anyone may have on this matter!
At the moment I don’t have much control over the hours I have to work, and so i’m going focus my time and attention on things I can control.
But is it really possible to strike a good work- life balance when the stresses, strains and pulls of life get in the way?