Today marks the first day of Spring 2017 and I for one am really very pleased about this; excited even. This Winter for me has been a long one, I am not great in Winter at the best of times. Cold, dark nights, bored children and a distinct lack of fresh air for everyone but the last three months have been trickier than normal too, horrendous actually, after the heartbreaking loss of one of my close friends, Amy. There was always someone first in line with a brand new pair of Birkenstocks, proudly displaying bunches of beautiful Spring flowers on Instagram and having uber-cool sunglasses at the ready before I did, and that was her. Amy loved the Spring and so I know she would be loving this change of season too.
The composer Gustav Mahler said ‘With the coming of spring, I am calm again’ and I can absolutely relate to this sentiment at the moment. Of course, a sudden appearance of butterflies, hedgehogs waking from hibernation, more hours that include light and leaving the big Winter coat at home don’t solve all of life’s stresses, strains and sadness but, they do make things a little easier? School runs in the hailstone just aren’t much fun, are they? Spring means that Winter has finally buggered off and for at least seven months and we can all relax, with cheerful thoughts of sunshine, newborn lambs and daffodils (..and run down to the supermarket to buy more outdoor furniture for the garden).
But speaking of new life, for us this year Spring also means change; and not just the usual Spring cleaning and moving-the-furniture-around type. It’s the time that we are going to finally start planning to move house. A fresh, new exciting start with Jake and I am looking forward to finding a home together where we can be together every day, and the kids can feel settled finally. It will be great to be part of a live-in couple again, and although the last two years have been interesting and often liberating and fun living as a single parent; they have at times also been pretty lonely and sometimes, difficult. I never wanted to live alone really, but I am glad I took the leap because I am now in a place where I am super happy again (and so is Dave), which means all round happiness for the kids too. Divorce gave us both the chance the reconsider our options, to find a new normal and a recovered equilibrium and for that, I will always be grateful.
This weekend the kids and I have spent our time together relaxing, staring at the pouring rain from the windows, not much fun after months of soft play, film nights, baking and board games; sneaking in visits to the park when able. I have been determined to keep them off their tablets but some days, they have been life savers. But ultimately, we are all bored! We are craving change. We want picnics, day trips to the seaside with ice-creams and sea-paddling, breakfast alfresco, to wear sandals on our feet and to wake up to sunshine filled mornings!
Just like the bluebells and daffodils that are brightening up the roadsides, houses and fields, the feelings of new beginnings are brightening up my mind. Feeling fresh and renewed I think it’s time to make use of the longer days, grab as much fresh air as possible with the kids and prepare for a very lovely Summer for us all in our new home.
Spring feels like a subtle promise of good things to come and that, *crescendo of bird song* sounds really good.